My Story

Candice Alba circa 1990 is I. By sight you would think that I’ve had it good. “She is pretty sane, normal girl; no major problems”. Sike. Truth reveals that no one can really look at another and depict their past, present, or future. That description may in fact be the reflection of myself; a mended, a restored, a new self. Left behind are the scars, frozen tears, and hidden insecurities of the past.
Some of my friends to this day think I should’ve been born I an earlier decade. My parents say I have the heart of an eighty year old. I account my father for most things. Artists such as Carlos Santana, Little Richard, Billy Holiday, Four Tops, War, the Supremes, and Beach Boys were just some of the household names that whisked their way into my soul at a tender age. The music from his prime and even before him was introduced to me as a child in the garage working on old Chevy engines. Yes, I was daddy’s little girl. . . but not the kind that wore tutus and danced around the house. Living with four boys had an effect on my femininity you could say.
Who knew that that same man who gave me the anthem Brown Eyed Girl by Van Morrison would turn into the reason for songs like Where’d You Go to become so personal? Ray left us four years ago this fathers day. That’s right. Fathers Day. Wounds like that will stay freshly open I believe until I hit the coffin. An absent father, suicidal brother, and typical teenage boy troubles will eventually give a girl trust issues. People often have trouble distinguishing the bull and the truth, who is real and who isn’t. The path that you take finding out is what affects a person. The ability to rebut and take a risk shows throughout the soulful R&B hits heard and gives courage to one who needs caution and strength.
Entering high school changed my perception of myself. The people around me gave me the courage, strength, and pride in myself even if they didn’t know they were. My new attitude was also followed by a new music- a new attitude and style. Inhibitions grew free and confidence gave the light to smile through a mending soul. I’ve realized I am a force to be reckoned with. Stubborn. Fierce. Strong. I realize if I can be happy with myself, I can overcome anything. Jigga Jigga hits is a mix of my past and present. We never know what the present will bring. To some that may be scary, but I love it!